So close....

The end of the school year looms on the horizon ~ so close. It's hard to believe the 2009-2010 school year has passed already. It's been a year of growth, introspection, discovery and pain.

*inner conversation alert:*
Ummmm, doesn't pain always come with those previous three?
Yes, yes it does. However, I've seen some people just have the pain without the other three because they don't want to hurt. Little do they know those first three take care of the pain in an amazing way. It may not always go away, but to know you're better for it changes the face of the pain....
So the pain of this past year has been a bad pain in a good way?
That pretty much sums it up!
*back to the outside world...*

I had an interesting conversation yesterday with one of our pastors at church. I rambled on and on way too much, but in the midst of the conversation he shared with me some sage advice that had been shared with him in regards to where people "belong" in their service. We were talking about how hard it has been to come to some of the conclusions I've come to this year ~ ie: realizing I am a much better cheerleader/idea person than manager!

What he said was something to the affect that there are those who are meant to be in the public/political arena because they can "play the game" with integrity and grit without being completely drained by it. Then there are those who are meant to be on the other side ~ standing alongside those in the arena and reminding them why they're doing what they're doing. We need both kinds of people.
It was such a balm to me personally. I firmly believe God has a plan for our lives. We have free-will and can make the choices we make, yes, but for those who consistently seek His guidance and strive to be in tune with where He is working and leading...well, I believe He puts us exactly where He needs us to be.

Sometimes it's to use us to reveal a problem and then let someone else come in and fix it.
Sometimes it's to remind us Who is really in charge.
Sometimes it's to get us to the place where we must ~ MUST ~ surrender our will for His.

Whatever the reason, I believe this year as PTA President was a part of His plan for my life, and I'm thankful for the lessons I've learned. There is a freedom in knowing who you really are. There's even more freedom in knowing WHOSE You are and that He's "got yer back."

Well, this is just one of those "gotta write" entries, and the sun is shining on the boys playing ball in the backyard ~ I best go do my favorite part of being a Mom...PLAY WITH MY KIDS! Have a great day!